Throughout the pregnancy, much to my surprise, I experienced an emotional roller coaster ride. I had originally that it would be a wonderful time of anticipation and joy, but I also grappled with feelings of doubt and stress, as I worried about how this little one would forever change life as we knew it. I spent nine months doing all I could to prepare, but I would soon discover that all my preparation would be in vain, because in the end, you can't truly ever prepare yourself for your first baby.
Parenthood is definitely a learn as you go process, and I find myself learning something new every day. Going along with that learning comes loving. Everyday I find myself loving even more than I thought possible the day before. I stare into the eyes of our little miracle and I thank God everyday we were chosen to be her parents.
I sit here in our living room and look around at a room that would have been unrecognizable a year ago - surrounded by toys of every shape, color and size. I realize that a good night for us means getting the opportunity to relax in front of the TV and turn in to bed around 10:00. I realize that we don't have the luxury of hopping in the car and going to catch a movie or go out for dinner anytime we have the urge. I realize that my "spare time" is now spent washing bottles, folding onesies, and pumping, even when I'm dead tired. I also realize, that despite all of this, I wouldn't have it any other way, because the rewards we reap when we see that smile spread across Madelyn's face is worth any trivial sacrifice.
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We are blessed, and are hopeful that God will continue to grace us with continued love, laughter, and learning in the new year to come. <3